All you need to know about me is in the entries. Actually, illness it’s probably quite a bit more than you need to know.
This week I went through a pretty hurtful breakup. It seems like it went on forever. Does five days qualify as forever? I guess maybe when every minute feels like an hour.
What burned me the most was that apparently he didn’t think I was a good fit for him the entire time we were together, here but rather than break it off he let me continue to invest my time and myself in a relationship that he saw going nowhere.
And it’s not like we didn’t talk about it – he said we were exclusive, he said he cared about me, he talked about things we were going to do eight months down the road… all the while he was scouring online dating sites for someone else. SERIOUSLY! How disrespectful can you be? And I might have never known if he hadn’t made the mistake of leaving his e-mail signed in on my computer.
How long would we have gone on with me thinking he was Mr. Wonderful and him thinking he was just killing time?
And why?!?! Is he just so needy he can’t be alone?
The thing is, I wasn’t looking for “forever.” In fact, I don’t even know if I’m capable of that. All I want is to enjoy the person I’m with and know that they enjoy being with me. Is that so much to ask?
My biggest irritation in life (next to stupidity) is women who can’t take care of themselves. You know the ones, pharm forever living off their parents or their friends or a man. It is 2009 for gawd’s sake!
Get a job that pays what you need to support yourself. If you can’t, medical then get an education. Learn to budget. Build your credit score. Believe that you are worth it!
Because here is the thing – you can’t depend on anyone but yourself. When the chips are down every woman needs to know that she can do it on her own. You never know what tomorrow will bring so be prepared.
Now, doctor I’m not talking about stay-at-home moms (until all the kids are in school), farm women or under-20’s. I think kids should be raised by their parents, that women in production agriculture have more than a full-time job and everyone needs time to get established.
When it comes down to it, nine times out of ten the women who depend on someone else to feed them and put a roof over their heads just need a good dose of self-esteem. But you have to do it for yourself because no one else will.